Far, far away

Alienated. Empty. Alone.

These are my exact feelings as I came back to my office from a quick round of beer with guy-kadas.

I realized --- I've been feeling this way for a month now.

I'm in a relationship that doesn't feel like one anymore.

There are times that I felt like giving up. What was the use of being with someone who isn't always there?

And if she is, she has the patience of a child. A temperament that I know I don't deserve.

I am distant. Here, yet not here. Transported in a far, far away land.

Away from my reality. Away from myself.

Whatever the outcome is evades me.

But I am definitely tired of the vicious cycle.

My own.

FOJ

First of June – and I am barely breathing.

On my plate:

1. Reviewing for my certification exam
2. Tests, tests and more usability tests
3. Hundreds of projects – well, at least they feel like they’re hundreds
4. Errands to run
5. Coming back to graduate school in June

Talk about biting more than what I can chew!

It’s June already – I work an average of 12 hours a day and yet I have not done even half of my KRAs. Good luck to me during next year’s evaluation.

I need a sanity-saver.

After a major project in July, I’d like to come home to Hong Kong. Stay there for 9 days at the most and just recharge.

I don’t care if I don’t go out of the condo. I just need a break!