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This whole week's totally for the books.
1. New mandate.
2. New scope.
3. New role expansion.
4. Another team folded under me.
Ako na.
Ako na talaga.
Ako na talaga ang nagmamaganda.
I don't know if I'm punching above my weight here, but my new scope is gargantuan. Admittedly, I asked for a scope expansion but I was happy to just add another stream under my belt. But NOOOOO. Kailangan ba talaga dalawang buong department?
Seriously.
But as usual, I'm happy to take on the challenge. I just said yes.
I'm excited. But I'm also scared.
Gulp.
After declaring to the Universe that this year, balance is primordial to me, this is what I get.
Okay payn. Andito na, eh.
Lezdodiz!
(So help me God.)
To the ones who are not used to beckie speak, that reads as NAKAKALOKA! Hahaha.
I definitely opened 2014 with a big loud bang in the office.
Normally, people suffer from post-holiday blues after Christmas.
Not me.
I hit the ground running.
My schedule is full to the brim.
I made sure I had 1:1 sessions with my one-downs to ensure they know what they're supposed to do and what to deliver in the first quarter of 2014.
On top of all these, I'm doing project management work for THE BIG EVENT. I hired a full-time coordinator for this, but being the OC me, I need to be on top of things.
Keep calm, keep calm. I keep on reminding myself.
At the end of each day, though, I feel an overwhelming sense of pride and fulfillment, knowing that I have been productive.
Sulit ang bawat araw.
*feeling fulfilled*
Day 3 of 2014: I'm back in Manila.
This entire day will be spent running errands and ticking off my to-do list for the wedding. The list is still a long one.
I committed to be Zen about it, as this year, I promised to reduce stress and remove garbage in my life.
Yes, back to basics. Back to the rudimentary, but the very important aspects of my life.
Balance, among many other things.
Game on, 2014!
Let's make music together!
I've been neglecting my paper work and it's been piling heaps.
I need my desk time. Quiet time to approve leave requests, answer satisfaction surveys of other groups, monitor our group budget and spending.
I need SILENCE.
Time.
I need more time.
15 days before Christmas.
2 months before the wedding.
I need more than 24 hours in a day.
So help me God.
What can ruin a great Friday fever?
MIGRAINE.
And the feeling of disorientation.
The weird thing is, the disorientation part came after I've had enough sleep. I was even more in the zone when I wasn't having enough.
WTH.
Anyways, I had to exert humongous effort to concentrate and do my work in the afternoon. It paid off a little bit, though I still have leftover paperwork to do over the weekend.
It's almost 6pm --- and I'm packing up early!
TGIF, indeed!!!
It's the latest fad online and it's been invading Facebook. I'm a late adopter of Bitstrip but it's been my leads' way to ease up the stress, especially today.
The strips below are just really hilarious. LOL.
Day 2 of house arrest. I'm still alive - without the restlessness and fidgeting.
I feel guilty when I take a break and push work stuff in a corner.
I feel bad putting off things for the next day --- even if accomplishing everything on my list will kill me.
There. I said it.
Skye is right. I do not know how to relax. I wish for it, I crave for it, I dream of it.
But when I get a day or two's break, I don't know what to do. He actually said that he'd be a much better houseband and will reach that goal faster than I can be a housewife.
I get lost without the structure of a to-do list, because truth be told, there's so much to do!!!
1. Work-wise, I have to build a major platform that needs to be up and running by next year.
2. That is just one of the hundreds of things I need to do at work. I don't even want to go into mentally enumerating them.
3. I've got a wedding ceremony and party to organize. Although I'm halfway there, it's no reason for me to silently panic.
4. 2014 is just around the corner and I'm nowhere near touching my vision board.
5. I have to account for all my mortgage payment if I want to sell one of my real estate properties.
Had I not gone on a quick break, I would probably be suffering a panic attack right now.
I know I'm trying to alleviate my guilt by opening my lappy, going online and trying to be productive by 9am - but it is a slow and good start for someone like me.
I need to breathe. Yes, I keep telling myself that.
It's okay to breathe.
Third day with the bug but I'm in the office, working like nothing's changed.
As giddy as ever. Fierce kung fierce.
I will be relentless.
You won't bug me, bug. Pun intended.
I knew it.
I was feeling under the weather last Monday. True enough, I caught the flu bug. Since I had my flu shots this year, my system's been trying to fight it off. I did panic, though, because I had a lot of mosquito bites last Friday when we had cocktails at Bugsys.
I took the day off yesterday. To rest. Re-channel. Realign. Re-center.
All I did was eat, sleep, read, eat sleep. It definitely helped in my recovery.
I'm back in the office, although I'm not in my best form yet. Just to be sure, I scheduled a doctor's appointment in the afternoon to also validate if I need to be tested for dengue.
Crossing finges that it's not so that I can go back to my TRX classes.
It feels good to slow down, though. I shouldn't be stubborn next time, to have to wait to get sick before I slow down.
Yes, yes. I'm listening, beloved Universe.
Slowing down, slowing down.
I cannot live without my to-do list. As in my previous entry, it's part of my OCD. I get disoriented if I don't have a tangible list as reference of what I need to do.
And whenever I don't accomplish as much in my list, I get really frustrated and annoyed at myself. I know. Throw me in the loony bin.
This morning, my 10-12 meeting was moved to next week. As I was clamoring for my to-do list again, I realized I was missing out on my social obligations. Even that is on my list.
Phone calls for best friends. Birthday greetings. Scheduling lunches and dinners for the long weekend.
In the midst of my Facebook greetings and phone calls for friends, I realized how I can just lose my humanity running after my work targets and the long list I have on my Evernote.
Despite my claim that it's my OCD in full effect that I have to put everything in my to-do list, I felt that I'm dehumanizing the aspect of my personal and social life by just relegating them as items to check on a list. I even have a Project Social label on it.
Fock. When did I ever get so rigid and ever-so structured that I run after accomplishing my list but missing out on the happiness that it brings me to talk to the people who really matter?
I don't think I can get rid of my list. It will throw me off the wall. But today, I decided to enjoy the process. Tick off the check boxes but enjoy every moment. Every conversation. Every accomplishment.
Today, I will just be. =)
Crossroads have a way of teaching you life's important lessons.
At least in my case, it's one of the most important stages where the Universe compels me to take action.
So here I am again, at yet another crossroad in my career. It's a good one, though. Not everyone is fortunate enough to be given so many choices and opportunities. I'm not even deliberately looking, but the opportunities just come knocking.
How can I not be grateful?
If I go for one career opportunity, I will go back to the lion's den once again. I will again leave my family behind to explore opportunities.
This time, though, I am not alone anymore.
But if I don't go, I feel like I'm starting to become complacent already.
Complacency has never been in my vocabulary. So has it permeated my life as of late? I refuse to believe so.
I'm struggling to make a decision. Normally, I stall when this happens. So many things to consider, not enough time.
I'm asking the Universe to again conspire in my favor for me to be enlightened and to make the right decision - for me and for everyone I love.
Events happening all at the same time.
Milestone upon milestone upon milestone.
My Evernote to-do list makes me survive all the overlapping things I need to do. It's hard to maintain the work hard, play harder lifestyle.
I do intend to work to live, not the other way around.
As I went through my milestones this year versus my targets, I'm quite glad (and relieved) that I actually achieved most of my goals. I did fall short on some, but the milestones I've achieved were far more significant.
I met my stylist this afternoon and he was actually quite stunned by my OC-ness. Yep, I keep all kinds of list - daily to-dos, Excel sheets of budget, Project Unity templates, grocery list --- yes, the list goes on.
I gotta do what I gotta do to keep my sanity. It gives me comfort to do some basic project management just to get things done.
Christmas and February are both just around the corner. Let's see how PM-ing can save me from pulling my hair out. =)
The number of unread emails in my Inbox.
And I was only gone for 3 days.
So help me God.
I've been in the office for more than 12 hours already.
Seriously --- ano ang uunahin ko?
'Didn't even realize it's way past dinner time already.
The truth is, I prefer crazy, jam-packed days with back-to-back meetings.
Ako na. Ako na ang workaholic. :P
First of July.
Time flies by so fast.
July, you're going to be phenomenal!!!
Game on!
=)
I'm at the Miascor airport lounge waiting for boarding. Thank God for lounge memberships and Citibank perks. I CANNOT STAND NAIA TERMINAL 1.
I remembered what Big said the first time we met --- it's the worst airport in the world.
But I'm digressing.
Initially, I wanted to start reading the newly assigned book from my SWATTS book club. I eagerly got myself a cabernet sauvignon so I can sit back, relax, sip my wine and read through my Kindle.
But no. Barely 5 minutes on the couch, my phone started ringing. I had to be in a series of phone calls
with my boss and my leads to firefight some issues in the office.
I had no choice but to turn off my Kindle and open my dear reliable lappy.
Work. It never ends.
Paalis ka na lang para magbakasyon ng ilang araw, hahabulin ka pa.
At the same time, while this may sound like a rant to others, it's actually quite the contrary.
I love my job. I love work. It's my vocation. I like the adrenaline rush. It gives me my sense of purpose.
Sadistic as it may sound, hahanap-hanapin ko ang panic mode at habulan if I am on vacation for far too long. It's just how I'm hard-wired to be.
But for now --- let me take this moment to chill a little bit.
Off to KL for a couple of days to celebrate Chinese New Year and VDay with Skye.
It's one of those very rare moments when I don't want work to come running after me --- even just for a couple of days.
We do deserve the time to be together and just be.
Closing lappy in a little bit.
2 weeks of non-stop workaholic mode.
Not self-inflicted. It is what's required to get the work done.
Quotang-quota!
I can't wait for the weekend!
I spent a big bulk of my morning and my lunch time making phone calls to fix my personal admin work:
1. Schedule of payments for my Sofia condo and parking
2. Credit card payments
3. Schedule of payments for my investments and mutual funds
4. My orders and buying schedule for LF Manila
5. My lunch and dinners with friends
And the list goes on and on and on...
I can't help but think : I badly need a personal assistant to calendar my personal activities.
I do have an admin-secretary in the office but I definitely want to separate my personal state of affairs and my other business.
Whew. I'm actually seriously considering it.
Wish ko lang.
Libre namang mangarap.
It is much harder and more painful when it's a friend who disappointed you.
Especially when there's work involved.
Friend, I do want to save you.
But I can only do so much. You do need to save yourself.
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