My own roller coaster ride

I am beginning to form the conclusion that my life is nothing but a vicious cycle. This can be taken as something good, but I take it as something bad for me.

Same pattern of events. Only the characters are changing.

Right now I am again confronted with the dilemma with regard to which values are important to me.

Suffice it to say that it's not my first time to be trapped in between 2 choices that are situated directly at the extreme poles of the spectrum. One way or another, it would change my life.

It is again a matter of choosing between consistency and comfort versus treading the fast, the furious and the very uncertain lane.

If I go down deep inside me, I know what I want, but when I choose what I really want, does it also mean I am choosing form over substance?