Day 2 of house arrest. I'm still alive - without the restlessness and fidgeting.
I feel guilty when I take a break and push work stuff in a corner.
I feel bad putting off things for the next day --- even if accomplishing everything on my list will kill me.
There. I said it.
Skye is right. I do not know how to relax. I wish for it, I crave for it, I dream of it.
But when I get a day or two's break, I don't know what to do. He actually said that he'd be a much better houseband and will reach that goal faster than I can be a housewife.
I get lost without the structure of a to-do list, because truth be told, there's so much to do!!!
1. Work-wise, I have to build a major platform that needs to be up and running by next year.
2. That is just one of the hundreds of things I need to do at work. I don't even want to go into mentally enumerating them.
3. I've got a wedding ceremony and party to organize. Although I'm halfway there, it's no reason for me to silently panic.
4. 2014 is just around the corner and I'm nowhere near touching my vision board.
5. I have to account for all my mortgage payment if I want to sell one of my real estate properties.
Had I not gone on a quick break, I would probably be suffering a panic attack right now.
I know I'm trying to alleviate my guilt by opening my lappy, going online and trying to be productive by 9am - but it is a slow and good start for someone like me.
I need to breathe. Yes, I keep telling myself that.
It's okay to breathe.
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