A year has gone by.
A lot has changed significantly and I'm not the same person as I was last year.
Cheers to new beginnings!
And cheers to me. For winging it. For surviving. For being a better version of myself.
It will only get better.
Thursday, October 18, 2012
October 17
A lot has changed significantly and I'm not the same person as I was last year.
Cheers to new beginnings!
And cheers to me. For winging it. For surviving. For being a better version of myself.
It will only get better.
Monday, October 15, 2012
Sunday, October 14, 2012
In moments of weakness and the comfort of reassurance
Quiet time after a week of chaos.
La familia just left barely half an hour ago. I cherish Sundays because it's time spent with the family. I won't trade it for anything.
And no matter how wasted I am from a Saturday night party, I will NEVER EVER skip church service and worship. It's 3 and a half hours, not normal for a Catholic service, but it bonded my family ever since I got back to Manila. I can't believe that my Dad will even religiously go - pardon the pun.
Skye also just left for the airport. After hearing how miserable I was last Monday, he just decided to fly in for the weekend, although we agreed to spend my birthday late.
Admittedly, we spent the entire Saturday sleeping in and recovering from exhaustion --- flights to and fro, partying, long days and nights in the office --- they took their toll on us both. We needed to peel ourselves out of bed since we had to pick J. up at the airport and go out for dinner-drinks.
I do feel guilty that I couldn't even get to pick him up at the airport. I arrived in my apartment 30 minutes before his plane landed - after celebrating a girlfriend's birthday and hanging out with the new gay circle.
The weekend flew by --- just like that. I didn't even realize how Sunday just came and went. I guess that's really how it is when you feel happy and you're having so much fun.
I went through a bout of depression just a few days ago. October is an emotionally loaded month for me. I honestly don't know how I will go through it --- because I look forward to it and I dread it at the same time.
This weekend, I was comforted by my family's love and how Skye moved heaven and earth just to be here and reassure me.
The emptiness and misery that I felt was replaced by so much love, care and concern from the people who matter and who made me matter in their lives.
Life is too short to be spent miserably. Whilst October, for sure, will give me one hell of an emotional roller coaster ride (as it normally does --- and it never fails!!!), I will cherish every moment of it.
That's how life is. It takes misery to appreciate simple joys and the gift of love.
To my family - my Mom, Dad, Abby and ate Cita --- thank you for giving me the sense of purpose that I need. Thank you for your unconditional love that I sometimes take for granted.
To Skye: thank you for your friendship. Thank you for taking the risk. Thank you for falling in love with me despite the awareness that it won't be easy.
Notwithstanding the momentary plunge into a dark place, I know things will get better from here.
I just need to remind myself in moments of weakness.
It's been one hell of a great week, after all.
La familia just left barely half an hour ago. I cherish Sundays because it's time spent with the family. I won't trade it for anything.
And no matter how wasted I am from a Saturday night party, I will NEVER EVER skip church service and worship. It's 3 and a half hours, not normal for a Catholic service, but it bonded my family ever since I got back to Manila. I can't believe that my Dad will even religiously go - pardon the pun.
Skye also just left for the airport. After hearing how miserable I was last Monday, he just decided to fly in for the weekend, although we agreed to spend my birthday late.
Admittedly, we spent the entire Saturday sleeping in and recovering from exhaustion --- flights to and fro, partying, long days and nights in the office --- they took their toll on us both. We needed to peel ourselves out of bed since we had to pick J. up at the airport and go out for dinner-drinks.
I do feel guilty that I couldn't even get to pick him up at the airport. I arrived in my apartment 30 minutes before his plane landed - after celebrating a girlfriend's birthday and hanging out with the new gay circle.
The weekend flew by --- just like that. I didn't even realize how Sunday just came and went. I guess that's really how it is when you feel happy and you're having so much fun.
I went through a bout of depression just a few days ago. October is an emotionally loaded month for me. I honestly don't know how I will go through it --- because I look forward to it and I dread it at the same time.
This weekend, I was comforted by my family's love and how Skye moved heaven and earth just to be here and reassure me.
The emptiness and misery that I felt was replaced by so much love, care and concern from the people who matter and who made me matter in their lives.
Life is too short to be spent miserably. Whilst October, for sure, will give me one hell of an emotional roller coaster ride (as it normally does --- and it never fails!!!), I will cherish every moment of it.
That's how life is. It takes misery to appreciate simple joys and the gift of love.
To my family - my Mom, Dad, Abby and ate Cita --- thank you for giving me the sense of purpose that I need. Thank you for your unconditional love that I sometimes take for granted.
To Skye: thank you for your friendship. Thank you for taking the risk. Thank you for falling in love with me despite the awareness that it won't be easy.
Notwithstanding the momentary plunge into a dark place, I know things will get better from here.
I just need to remind myself in moments of weakness.
It's been one hell of a great week, after all.
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