Unsettling
“I sure hope there’s something better for us. Here we are, fab women, who I think are ready and have the life skills to make good partners and create a loving environment, but for some reason, we don’t have the one person to share our lives with.”
This is the text that I got from one of my Magic 5, Celia.
I was in the middle of a meeting when we started texting each other. Celia dropped me some lines that she’s back in
I felt sad when I read her message. Actually, right smack in the middle of a stressful update meeting, I felt a lump in my throat building up.
She’s right.
Here we are – wonderful, smart, fabulous women who have their own career and money, who know how to cook, prepare a wonderful dinner and entertain guests with animated conversations – yet we don’t have that one person to share and witness our lives.
What the hell is wrong in our world?
Actually, I can answer that myself.
It’s not that there isn’t anybody there. There are a lot of options, but the more important issue is – how to choose the right one.
The One – is hard to find.
The passion, the connection – all in the realm of the intellectual, the emotional and the physical – are just really difficult to fabricate. If it is not there, then it really isn’t.
Both Celia and I will not settle. Not for anything less.
And both she and I know that.
On my end, I am still in search for that passion.
I don’t want to be with someone who just likes me too much. I just don’t want to be adored. I want to be loved. Cared for. Looked after. In the way that I will love and care for the person.
I want a witness to my life. I want to be a witness to his or her life.
I want honest mornings. Comfortable togetherness. Passionate kisses.
I want it all.
I may do things differently in finding The One. Love me or hate me for it. But I’m taking my chances.
I will not settle.
I want it all.
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