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Monday, March 08, 2004

So what comes next?

Have you ever had an experience where you were so attracted to someone that you practically placed him on a pedestal? You feel like there is NOTHING – and absolutely NO ONE – that will come close to the person. You think that everything and EVERYONE else would pale in comparison.

The raw feeling of melting when you see him, of your knees getting wobbly, of becoming goo-goo eyes with the mere sight of him like you were back in high school ogling at your teenage crush, of feeling the butterflies flitting in your stomach, of your heart thumping and feeling like it’s in your throat – all of which make you feel happy, intoxicated, sad, hurt and crazy all at the same time.

Though normally this isn’t you, the schizophrenic-like state is something that you open yourself up to.

But what if afterwards you see something – a flaw, a quirk – on the person that creates a chip on the pedestal? And you discover some more: quirk after quirk that annoys you, flaw after flaw that you realize you couldn’t possibly put up with?

What happens to the pedestal when it crumbles down?