Cruel intentions

I feel violated, being informed that someone is sowing intrigue and malice. I just don’t get it – how can people be so full of malicious intent when they can opt to be good and nice?

Something must have been fucked up somewhere in their childhood. Whatever happened to them, I couldn’t care less.

A warning though: Nobody touches my team.


Clairvoyance

I felt it in my bones. I smelled the waft of malevolence from afar. I should have heeded the signs. I should have known.

Of course, Goody Me insisted that people deserve to be given the so-called benefit of the doubt.

How come I’m never wrong when I sense that something is messed up in a person?

I’ve always known and sensed a scheming, lying bitch. I shouldn’t have been Miss Congeniality.

Tuesdays with myself

This is turning out to be a loooong week. It’s only Tuesday and I feel very spent already, what with the running around, going to the salon 4 times to get my hair fixed [my stylist for 5 years ruined my long tresses!], stressing over my long list of to-dos in the office and feeling bad that I haven’t done anything for school!

Wow – that was such a stressful sentence. Whew.

What’s new? It’s pretty much the same since I decided to lay low for a while. I still fuss over a lot of things beyond my control, but realizing that I shouldn’t be doing that very often is a good start.

Here’s a recap of things that I’ve learned and re-learned:

1. Quit while you’re ahead. This is so true and so real for me. It’s always good to be able to know when to stop doing something or trying to get something. If you’re already ahead of the race and you know you have a good edge, then you can leave things at that.

2. Choose the battles you want to fight in and make sure you win them. I think I am gifted with the power to discern this – thank God! This goes without saying, never go to war or wage a war unprepared.

3. People who have the most number of criticisms to dish out are usually those with the most number of insecurities in their lives. That’s why they try to take it out on others.

4. Communication is irreversible. Be reminded of this when you want to lash out at someone. Whatever hurting words you say, you can never take them back.

5. Thou shall not make enemies with thyself. No matter how pissed off you are at others, whenever you want to shut everybody out, you should always be at peace with yourself. The sleepless nights I spent for more than 2 weeks were caused by that internal struggle – of trying to do what I think is right.

What do you know -- it's really true. You learn something new - and something old - everyday.

My list can go as long as 15. But my migraine is forcing me to stop, go to my gym and hit the sauna!

Ain't it funny?

When you take a second look at someone you used to like so much at a time that you are already more objective about things --- you go ask yourself --- why the hell did I like this person in the first place???

My world and beyond

Columbia's demise is a very sad news on a Monday morning. I am one with the world mourning the death of its crew.

Touchdown

With my feet back on the ground, I welcome this new week with a fresh perspective. Yes, I have landed back safely, contrary to Jovan's doomsday predictions.

New year, new ballgame

Kung hse fat chai! I got a new haircut, new pairs of shoes, new clothes. And a new beginning!

Everything that is happening to me right now either points to my direction as planned with The One or veers away from it. Fate is subjecting me to all the crossroads I can possibly encounter. I do have a choice in everything - but that's exactly the point - it is already compelling me to make a choice. NOW.

So let the game begin.