Engagement brouhaha

Jovan, pare! Congratulations for now being officially engaged to The Girlfriend. I'm so happy for you, man.

Actually, a lot of friends have been asking me when The Boyfriend and I are planning to get engaged. I guess after last year's trauma of me freaking out on the idea and scheming to fend it off, he hasn't mustered enough courage to ask again - hahaha!

But seriously, The Boyfriend is the ultimate husband material. It's just that for now, I want to enjoy his company as it is, without the pressure of being engaged. I can be happy for my friends getting engaged, yes. But mine is a bit far off for now.

There is this ONE major issue that I have to contend with before making that big leap. After getting through and getting over THAT, perhaps I can already have that peace of mind and certainty that I am ready.

As to how I will confront that ghost, I'm really not sure how or if I will ever have the chance to. That's actually the worst part of it - not really knowing for sure how it will have that much needed closure.