Blessed to be stressed

I have been stressing and fussing over some of my to-dos for 2 weeks now. Of course, I’ve been ranting and grumbling and using The Boyfriend as a sounding board. The Buddy wasn’t exempted from my litanies as well.

The Buddy and I have been texting back and forth about how hard it is to wake up at 5:30 in the morning to be in the office by 8, yada yada yada. The Buddy’s work schedule back here was at 6am so I used to wake him up at 4 or 5.

So I didn’t get much moral support. I actually got more reprimands. There goes my 10 pesos per text message.

The Boyfriend, on the other hand, gave me a new mantra. Whenever I feel so bummed about my never-ending tasks, he told me to tell myself:

“I am blessed to be stressed.”

Nung una hindi ko ma-gets. Not because I am slow, but because work is really tougher now. I dream of it, wake up in the middle of the night thinking of opening a branch and remembering the exact colors of the store outlet. Admittedly, I dread going to the office sometimes because of the pressure.

I have several big pimples on my face. My period is delayed. I have dark circles under my eyes. Or sometimes I go to the office with puffy Garfield eyes for the lack of sleep.

It can’t be my new foundation that’s causing my pimples. It’s non-comedogenic. As for my period, I’ve been celibate and it’s highly unlikely for me to be another case of Immaculate Conception.

These are all signs of stress.

So pano ako naging blessed to be stressed?!?!?!

It only dawned on me when The Boyfriend also got so annoyed by my ranting and rambling. Baka daw kaka-reklamo ko, bawiin sa akin ni God lahat ng blessings na binigay nya.

Tama nga naman.

I asked – no, begged – for this job to be mine. I asked Him to give this to me so I can prove what I can do.

At 25, nandito na ako. And if I succeed in making and implementing the bizplan, I would have reached my self-imposed target. Doing so, I would have reached the apex of my career.

THUS, two years from now, I could get married already. Kahit ako pa ang mag-propose sa kanya!

So ano nga naman ang nire-reklamo at ine-emote ko?!?!?!

This is what I asked for Him to grant me: a new and challenging job that is right for me with a very good boss and mentor.

And true enough: Ask and it shall be given to you.

Binigay naman, eh.

Moral lesson of the story: Most of the time we are given the things and opportunities we ask from God. But He never said the road to these blessings and opportunities is easy. Perhaps it’s a bit hard for us to get there so we will rejoice in the triumph and appreciate His gift more.

Ganda, di ba?