First bitching of the year – when I can’t help it

He has good intentions.

He is earnest.

He is sincere.

And I am in love with him.

Yet when I come to terms with reality, sometimes I can’t help it.

I can’t help but resent our circumstance.

To the point of resenting him.

It saddens me.

It angers me.

Yet everyday, I decide that he’s worth it.