Pwedeng aminin?

I'm not okay tonight. 

It took me more than half an hour to bring myself to the gym. I was biting my lip until I think I tasted blood. I was tearing up but took a deep breath. 

I ran. I ran and ran and ran --- like I can run away from whatever is gnawing at me tonight. 

After showering, I sprawled on my bed wrapped in my towels. I didn't feel like moving. I didn't feel like doing anything tonight. 

And I'm too proud, too hurt to talk about it. 

Gusto ko lang aminin. Just for tonight. 

I'm not okay. 

And I know, like whenever I say it, this too shall pass. 

But just for tonight, if only for a moment, I want to acknowledge how broken I am.