In her memory

I dreamt of her for two consecutive nights. A pang of guilt hit me since I wasn’t able to visit her last Saturday, as the family promised to visit her every month.

A lot of people say that I took after Nanay. Her strength, her independence, her character.

I’m inclined to agree. Even at a young age, I can relate to her more than I did with my mother.

According to Chinese beliefs, when a grandparent or parent passes away, the first born child or the favorite one is showered with a lot of blessings in the next coming years.

I’m not really sure if I believe in that, but it certainly is happening to me. And not even a year has gone by.

Four months after Nanay passed away, my life and my personal perspective turned 180 degrees.

I’m doing fabulously well at work. My boss-friend is pleased with my performance. On top of that, I got an unexpected salary increase that I could only get after 2 or 3 years if we follow the company’s yearly percentage increment.

My projects are all launching on time – as I was blessed with marvelously efficient teammates – thank you, Me-Ann and Charo!

My friends/teammates in the office got promoted and I’m genuinely happy for them. They both deserve it. More importantly, I’m proud to have a hand in one of the promotions since I initiated it and helped push for it. Although she is under me for barely 4 months, she should have been promoted a long time ago, with her contributions and relentless efforts.

Personal sphere is soaring even higher.

I am reunited with my Dad. And he is into clean living now. Although I have always been Grandma’s girl (and despite his shortcomings to the family), I have always had a soft spot for him. He is my Dad, after all. We text more and talk more now.

My relationship with Rico is getting better and stronger. I was actually surprised with the way he thinks and plans about us (of which I cannot yet disclose). We have had tough times – some of which I cannot even imagine. But his love for me has always been consistent.

I could go on and on.

Things are looking up, to say the least.

Although it’s inevitable to have some bumps and cinches here and there, the bigger picture looks so much better.

To my Grandmother, thank you for looking after me. Thank you for making the Higher Powers listen.

I still think of you --- all the time.

And to the Universe, thank you for listening to my prayers.

I promise to share what I have. And pay it forward.

“The thankful heart is always close to the creative forces of the universe, causing countless blessings to flow toward it by the law of reciprocal relationship, based on a cosmic law of action and reaction.”

-Joseph Murphy, The Power of your Subconscious Mind