Chronicles of the (semi) breaking up process

Day 1:

Current state

• Couldn't get up in the morning because phone call with him ended at almost 5am.
• I am Garfield-personified. Puffy eyelids and huge eyebags. Ugh. People in the office can't see me like this. Totally ugh.
• Decided to take half a day off.
  
• Migraine girl.
  
• Hung over from the 1 1/2 bottle of red wine I downed last night. Yes, by myself.
  
• The sun. It's hurting my eyes!
• Solitude. I'm on alone-mode right now. To process things on my own. Thanks, Gemma and Celia for offering to be there.
  

Coping mechanism

• Dressed up going to the office. Scoured through my cabinet for my cutest, nicest black and white Zara top, thick black belt, the highest silver sandals I can ever find on my shoe rack.
• Make up, make up, make up.
• Fab hair. Blow dry. Curl. Blow dry.
  
• Last smile in front of the mirror. You go girl! It's just another day.
• For someone who's just broken up, I don't look so bad!
  

Questions in my mind

• Why are we failing?
• What are we not doing right?

Emotional check

• I miss the guy. Sigh.